I have been feeling STUCK. It's been hard to describe because I am still feeling a flow of creativity, but simultaneously stuck, or trapped in this present world. I've been mulling this over in my brain now for the past year, but heavily the past few weeks. There have been some synchronicities and other friends have been noticing the same feelings. I wanted to notate the words and some of the synchronicities...I'm not really sure why. Maybe, if only to reference this as an intriguing mystery or something to reflect on later.
Lack of energy
I've been incredibly frustrated with the lack of originality in my surroundings. For example, we went to a winery today. It was a nice winery but not interesting by any means. I felt like I was surrounded by a bunch of people who were putting on a show of pretense. I mean, they seemed to be enjoying themselves. Kris and I left, I vented the entire drive back about how I wished businesses were unique and why is every single winery the exact same. I complained that the wine was not even that good and the food truck there was even less appealing. He laughed because I don't typically complain and agreed that it felt like we were surrounded by a bunch of yuppies.
The whole experience reminded me of a time I visited a metaphysical shop in Arizona. There were young customers purchasing amethyst that they had no idea was fake. You can literally go dig for raw amethyst in Arizona. I'm honestly not even sure if the shop owners realized that the amethyst was not real.
Anyways, earlier in the week I had told one of my friends I was feeling stuck and was having a hard time describing in what way. Today's events really solidified it.
Earlier in the week I saw an Owl during the day. I thought it was a little odd but admired it from afar. It was refreshing hearing the hoot of an owl at 2:00 pm in the afternoon. Tonight, an owl flew so close to me its wings must have been centimeters from my face. I ducked quickly because it was unexpected and almost scared me. This reminded me of the last time I had an owl encounter and it too flew right next to my face. I wondered if owls were symbolic of anything in particular with the events going on and the way I was feeling.
This is taken from https://www.spiritanimal.info/owl-spirit-animal/ :
"Symbolic meanings for the owl are:
Intuition, ability to see what others do not see
The presence of the owl announces change
Capacity to see beyond deceit and masks
The traditional meaning of the owl spirit animal is the announcer of death, most likely symbolic like a life transition, change"
A friend also recommended I listen to The Owl's Message an episode of Stories with Sapphire featuring Mike Clelland. You can listen to it below.
Clelland's accounts about synchronicities rang a familiar tune in my ears. I recalled when I first began researching Randonautica. The owl is the logo of the app and relates to the frequency illusion.
I personally have always viewed owls as a symbol of seeking knowledge and truth. So I have always welcomed an owls visit.
I did find it peculiar though with so much deceit, fakery, and lack of substance in this world that I've been feeling, the owl has the ability to see beyond that and often indicates change is around the corner.
I'm hoping this change is for a more fulfilling world.